a little more caution

on a brighter note, ive decided to step out of my room and wish my mum a happy mothers day. Sigh, am still having tuition later though and a family gathering afterwards. But that's okay. At least I could still see the smiles on others faces and my couzzz:-) and it'll be pretty eventful tomorrow cause I'll be going to avril's concert. And the day after, back at reality. On a random note, I dont have a crush. At all. Like for once in 163872190 years. I gave up after 2 years. -sense of achievement- I could finally let go of something. Shall have a third entry later if I don't get home too late. And I just went to hug my mum, and we didn't even glance at each other for a moment.

Hold back your tears put them to use some joyous day.

That's just cliche

So well, I disappeared for the longest period of time just because I was dwelling over nonsense and just shutting myself from the world once again. CTs are just over and mr ng secretly told me that I got first in class for chinese(now it no longer is a secret huh). It's funny how I can't really converse in Chinese but often do well in that subject as compared to the others.

Anyway, today is mothers day. Shit happened the day before. Fuck all these nonsense happening to me right now. You know, the pressure is just too hard to take, and it kinda cuts me deeper each time. I dont feel the mothers day love, and am actually more enthu about the elections. This is bad. So, to conclude my efforts went down the drain. I often tell others that I'll forget it after a couple of days, but really who would be brave enough to forget all that has once hurt them. School has also been a bore, just trying to fake a smile every fucking day, and it has been a downright torture. I miss the love I once had.

Then again, I've never actually feel more love from others except for my family. It sucks to feel all alone. And bottling everything up inside just so others will not worry is worst. I'm such a fool, guess am just more than meets the eye.

I love you. I miss you.

you were once like this

NOTE TO SELF: PLS STOP YOUR EXCESSIVE EATING. YOU HAZ BLUBBER ALL OVER.

'suppp

I LOVE VPX. CANT WAIT TO LET LOOSE ON SATURDAY WITH 'MAH BABE. mugging with yini on friday and dancing with mia, yini, claire on saturday. That reminds me, thursday is bio test and i haven't been studying, damnnn. OH AND FRIDAY IS SPORT DAY! whoopie. oh shut up gueyching. //Time will pass, just 630 more days before it'll finally be over! that is like one year and 9 months. Oh well. sorry i just had to do it. i just had to post a photo of myself. such a cam-whore. okay shut up.

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I hope someone would notice that something is amiss.