FAAAAAYYYYULLL

am in josh's place right now and our initial plan was to study, but he got hooked onto black shot and i'm on my mac so i guess it failed. HELLLLLUUUU SOMEBODEH PREPARE A PISTOL, FTES ARE IN 9 DAYS AND I AM NOT DONE WITH ANY OTHER SUBJECTS EXCEPT CHEM. (CHEM IS MY BEST FRIEND BTW)

so i've been feeling artsy-fartsy lately and i ripped my black knit yesterday and made an earring today acting like exams are over when it isnt even here yet. Wore the black knit out yesterday and it was surprisingly comfy and it fitted me well HOOOOORAH!

(pictures below hyehyehye) & i made the earring without pliers, just fingers. A clap for that?

speaking of yesterday, dad and i went on a bus ride at night to whitesands so that i can stock up on my undies/knickers and get some stationary while dad got snacks for coco. But that's beside the point, he sort of talked me out of being too conscious about my weight and i opened up to him quite a bit yesterday, saying that i've recently thought of being anorexic just so i could feed my craving for a skinny body. But, i guess it's not the best option.

AND I WENT OVER TO HAVE POPIAH AND JOSH'S PLACE WITH HIS FAMILY TODAY HA HA HA OH THE IRONY

i guess that's all for now, i should get started on IH and start consolidating my notes.

THE FLOOR'S CURRENT STATE (YES I LIKE TO STUDY ON FLOORS)

and if you're ever wondering, yes thats a dumb-bell(is that how its spelt?) WHY DO ALL GUYS HAVE A DUMB-BELL IN THEIR ROOM???? my cousins(all my cousins are guys) have them in their rooms too ugh and several balls and a baseball bat lying around. /AWKWARD/ I HAVE FLOWERS IN MY ROOM.

GOOD VHAI

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I can't even study now that I'm in tears and my body feels like crap. Reading 6billionsecrets doesn't help either because almost all the things they've said were the things I've been through. Tomorrow's mum birthday and is my LC paper for FTE and I'm in crumbles, I hope it all turns out fine

Pretty lady over at the other corner

"Yours To Hold"

I see you standing here
But you're so far away
Starving for your attention
You don't even know my name

You're going through so much
But I know that I could be the one to hold you

[Chorus:]
Every single day
I find it hard to say
I could be yours alone
You will see someday
That all along the way
I was yours to hold
I was yours to hold

I see you walking by
Your hair always hiding your face
I wonder why you've been hurting
I wish I had some way to say

You're going through so much
Don't you know that I could be the one to hold you

I'm stretching but you're just out of reach
You should know
I'm ready when you're ready for me
And I'm waiting for the right time
For the day I catch your eye
To let you know
That I'm yours to hold

I'm stretching but you're just out of reach
I'm ready when you're ready for me

//I've always liked you from the start, but I guess you've found someone better, all these months were more than just memorable. Trust me on this, I've always noted the times we've spent time together and the things we've done together but I guess you too, deserve someone better. As much as I don't show it, I really do crave your attention, but I guess it's time to let go. Just wanted you to know that you're beautiful.

S T R E S S

Maybe I'm exaggerating but time has been pretty hard on me lately. Got to juggle between memorising my dance choreos(Swan Lake, Modern, MOD 1/2, soon-to-have funk jazz choreo, ms chiam's somewhat eccentric choreo, and soon-to-have final year choreo), my school work, and time for myself. It isnt helping when i realise that FTE's are 2 weeks away and i have modern rehearsal the day before. And instead of using the time to catch up on my school work, i painted a flower. I cant draw for nuts.

enthralling power

great great great today is great. Paramore/ellie goulding's playlist is on replay and all is good except for the fact that school is starting in 2 days time. The only time i actually revise was today for 2 hours, and that was it. Good job GC, you never fail to disappoint.

Anyway, i had my helix piercing done today and its recovering pretty quickly so far. Sorta sneaked out of the house yesterday to meet peixuan and hanyi in town cause i couldnt stand a min on my desk facing math, gone over to my granny's place for mooncakes and dinner during at night and surprisingly my mum wasnt mad. The day before was spent in town as well, with Yamin and her friend, Natalie. She was cool as hell. We spend our evening in H&M and it was so damn crowded. After being in there for 2 hours, i only got a bowler hat. Went to a sentosa after that at night for dinner, luge, and skyride. It was so satisfying.

My holidays were pretty good, and i have yet to remind myself that FTEs are in less than a months time. Kudos to GC. Time to get down to work. I decided to vlog but the video couldnt convert from AVI to MVI so too bad hahaha let the picutres do the talking.

voila~