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jarielann@gmail.com / 15 / Singapore

accidental tourist, delusional chink, poodle-lover












Friday, May 31, 2013

Holidaze

Yesterday was the last Friday of the school term which concluded with me sobbing in the hall while my parents converse with my very cranky form teacher (who so happens to be my amath teacher). They were talking about my grades deteriorating and such. She also included "...she also has to comply by the school rules, such (as) the number of ear studs" in my report card I MEAN HOW IS THAT RELEVANT TO ANYTHING? she also missed out on the 'as' in that sentence. Well done.

i left the hall midway because the sight of everyone grimming irked me and it isn't much of a difference if I were there.

The car ride home was dead silent, it was the calmest, most quietest moment of that Friday, thankfully it lasted a good 30mins before my mom left for work.

while I continued on my sobfest alone at home, they decided that it was time to send me text messages about my behavior. I did truly feel remorseful but they did not actually realise that I was in an ordeal.

Anyway night time came and I met with the dancers for the SDT gala at the esplanade. My mood fluctuations were obvious and so were their intolerance to my presence at some point. We headed to the esplanade not long after and Don Quixote made up for my anxiety earlier on. It's definitely my favourite dance piece by far and the SDT rendition of it did not disappoint.

When I was home after the concert, my then, drunk father decides to talk to me about that morning. I refused. I could see tears well up around his eyes but I couldn't bear to get myself into another emotional turmoil neither do I want to aggravate him further. I went to bed that night.

He wrote me a 7 page long text message and he left for China this morning......

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

ugh

now that i'm in the perfect mood to wallow in self-pity and rattle on about my solemn hatred for school in general, lets begin.

school is generally a e w i t c h i n g place to be in (realise how b i t c h is in the word bewitching. my sentiments exactly.) I mean the people i interact with daily are nice but the overall population of which 3/4 are mentally generalized as pricks in the ass and the other 1/4 have already been mentally stabbed in the face with a durian is just aggravating. 

i've lost so much interest in school. 

and to all the churlish people reading this who have already graduated,  keep your comments to yourself because you probably already felt this way in your days of being a prepubescent tween. 

moving on, i've been skipping school to catch up on sleep and dense matters eg: tanning and shopping. its nice to be musing around under the heat because the heat in school is just different from the heat by the pool. my workload is piling and right beside a clutter of pillows stacked to block out the view of my mathematics assignments are MORE assignments. fuck.

thank goodness for friends who actually feel the same. we went haji lane after school one afternoon and did absolutely nothing but walk around the district talking to makciks at push carts and complaining about our sore feet. such days are lovely.

more about school: i hate how there are just some girls who go on about how they want to be skinny, pretty and smart. i mean, everyone wants those tits and brains but fuck off you irrelevant bastards, you don't have to fish for compliments in the midst of no where aka school since school is a hell hole and you're probably already dead.

good bye. i want my steam broccolis now.

by the way i've been listening to a lot of cat power. love how her fringe drapes down across her forehead so perfectly leaving gaps to reveal her flesh. also she's bare footed in a live show with live music and vocals. i might possibly be in love.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

Here comes the spark before the dark

I have concluded yesterday that the mid year exams were long and gone, neglecting the fact that the Art paper was the day after. Therefore J, D and i went on a trip around my neighborhood intending to feed cats but we obviously side-tracked. (and i finally got around to do collecting my films at night)

Voila! Presenting the films of March and April






















And snippets from our 4 hour get-away yesterday














and a vlog