Mess

Feeling like shit I don't even know why, but am gonna dance again from tomorrow onwards so hopefully it'll keep my mind off things.

been sitting in the toilet for hours just thinking and crying. It feels good to feel the pain and fatigue from the mental strain. Guess I'm just not good enough. She's gorgeous and thin, the other cute and smart. I would prefer the latter but I'm neither. Who am I to think that it'll work out. Why am I caring so much. I'm genuinely tired of giving a fuck, I really love to but it hurts, so much